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Well, I apologize for having an unbearably long thread! It seems they all turn out that way (although I will say, this probably has to be my longest!!!). I was going to say in the topic (long is an understatement) but then I was afraid no one would click on it! haha To skip down to the actual questions about dog careers, just scroll down to the 3rd post. The rest is just background info. (oh my..) Thank you!
I am seventeen years old, going on eighteen at the end of the month. Of course, when growing up you have a list of what you aspired to be. For me, whenever asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, the answer was "Veterinarian". Hands down, not much thought too it. More specifically, I wanted to be a large animal vet so that I could work with horses. Horses have always been my passion since four years old.
In my freshmen year of high-school, however, I became more concerned with what I was actually gonna do when I got older.
I'll tell you why...
A close family friend of ours started a computer business. He talked about getting myself, his son, and another kid set up in the business. We could start sooner rather than later, by the time we were 18 -we could already be making more money then a lot of people, let alone 18 year olds. We'd have a jump start on life.
Well, I knew what my view on all of this was... Pssssh, I don't want to be stuck behind a computer all day! I wanna work with animals!!!! I want to be outside!! Obviously!
And I put my foot down, I was not interested AT ALL. Period.
My dad, however, didn't think I should shut the idea off so quickly. He pushed the idea. --Nope, sorry dad, not going for it! I stuck to my guns. Plus, I seriously doubted this whole idea was even gonna lift off the ground. I mean, come on. I live on the west coast and our friend is on the east coast! How's that gonna work?!
onder:
Time went by, however, and I was able to brew on the idea. I started seeing valid points.
Especially since my views on becoming a "Veterinarian" were starting to fall apart.
Okay, I'm game for it now! What do I have to do?
I did my freshmen year in home-school, but I decided to go back to public high-school my sophomore year. I missed my friends. Half-way through my sophomore year, I decided I wanted to give this computer gig a shot. So, after my first semester of public high-school, I went back to home-school. It wasn't going to be for long though, because I was going to take the C.H.S.P.E. (equivalent to a GED, however in California you can't take a GED till your 18). Get out of high-school, go to the east coast, and get my career on!!! :thumbsup: Woo!!! Easy, right? Well yes, up to a point.
I took my C.H.S.P.E. and passed with flying colors. I was planning on passing this, going to the east coast, then taking my GED there to stay outta high-school. Our friend would teach me the tricks of his trade, I would work in his company, eventually get a degree in college, life would be grand, ect...
Well, to be honest, I'm not sure what happened. Once I passed the C.H.S.P.E. --it all fell apart. My dad suddenly didn't seem so supportive anymore and the whole thing came crashing down around me. I don't know if he realized that I was really doing this and could be gone soon or what. I'm not blaming it on him, because I could have stepped-up and got some answers. Figured things out, fixed the plan -but I didn't. Like I said, the plan almost literally vanished over-night. We didn't talk about it, it was awkward whenever we talked about my future (it still is actually), our friend was confused. I mean, I didn't have the plane ticket over there or anything, but I was working on it.
I don't know, after this, I fell into this depressed, confused sort of state. I mean, life carried on of course. Yet, it is always weighing on me. It still is actually, hence why I posted this thread. It's a constant nagging in the back of my mind. I decided to just finish out HS and get my diploma, which looks better than a CHSPE or GED because why not? I didn't have anything else going for me.
I feel like I let this event sap all my energy. My motivation to get started early in a career; to have a head start, hit the ground running. It also saddens me because I've let this consume the last few years of my life. I've had no idea what I want to do. (Except some ideas with horses, see notes below) If I had recovered faster or handled it differently, life could have been quite different.
~*~*~*~*~*Horse Side Note*~*~*~*~*~
Besides computers, only a couple different career options have entered my head. Working with horses or working with dogs.
I have mainly looked into working with horses. Because of past experiences, I could see myself working on a dude ranch. (I have quite a bit of experience guiding public trail rides and of the outdoors period.) I love guiding trail rides and giving people the outdoor adventure experience. When looking into this career more, I found that this job pays very little money and just how seasonal it was. Which, I know is the case with most animal careers (little money). However, you spend a summer working and living on this ranch. At the end of the season, you need to go. You have no home, no job, and $5000-$8000 to live the rest of the 6 or more months to live off of. For me, this is a little more unstable than I'd like. (I can see myself working a summer or two at a ranch sometime, but I can't make a career that would satisfy me out of it).
Next Idea: Horse trainer. I've had horses steadily since I was 8 years old, and have been taking lessons since 5-6 years old. I know and absolutely LOVE HORSES. I could start a business, boarding and training. This satisfies what I'm looking for in a career. Only one problem, after this summer, I have found I'm not sure I enjoy breaking horses to ride. Even after the BEST EXPERIENCE possible with training horses. (Broke my filly Sasha this summer under a real professional friend's guidance. She never once tried to get me off her back. It was such a positive experience!) Yet I still get a little nervy for a bit when getting on her back because she is so green, and that is even after she has treated me so kindly. I'm lucky she loves me, cause a lot of green horses would have felt my nerves and probably be like
Bye bye!! -buck- With time, I could probably become more confident, but the horse business is a very hard and VERY EXPENSIVE business to break into which I don't have the money to do.
I will say, I do love working with them on the ground, especially foals!!! De-sensitizing, building trust, halter breaking, lunging, tricks ect... :thumbsup: I am totally comfortable with horses on the ground and on their backs. Just when I'm sure they're not going to try and get one over on me. (Had a bad overall experience with an unpredictable previous horse, and I think this is why I get nervous now).
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You know, if I really wanted, I could still pursue this option. He told me himself, when you are 18 we'll talk. Yet, it is not the opportunity that I feel it once was. My friend has now built a booming business. His life is now extremely busy, and if I tried to wiggle my way in there now -I would feel as if I were being quite the burden to him
I didn't fight for that life though, and this thread is about letting go of the past and embracing the future...
I want to think of it now as: "Hey, maybe fate intercepted a bad call. If I really wanted that life, I would have fought harder for it."
So here it is, I want to start a new chapter in life. Chapter 1 "The NEW Beginning".
I am seventeen years old, going on eighteen at the end of the month. Of course, when growing up you have a list of what you aspired to be. For me, whenever asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, the answer was "Veterinarian". Hands down, not much thought too it. More specifically, I wanted to be a large animal vet so that I could work with horses. Horses have always been my passion since four years old.
In my freshmen year of high-school, however, I became more concerned with what I was actually gonna do when I got older.
I'll tell you why...
A close family friend of ours started a computer business. He talked about getting myself, his son, and another kid set up in the business. We could start sooner rather than later, by the time we were 18 -we could already be making more money then a lot of people, let alone 18 year olds. We'd have a jump start on life.
Well, I knew what my view on all of this was... Pssssh, I don't want to be stuck behind a computer all day! I wanna work with animals!!!! I want to be outside!! Obviously!
My dad, however, didn't think I should shut the idea off so quickly. He pushed the idea. --Nope, sorry dad, not going for it! I stuck to my guns. Plus, I seriously doubted this whole idea was even gonna lift off the ground. I mean, come on. I live on the west coast and our friend is on the east coast! How's that gonna work?!
Time went by, however, and I was able to brew on the idea. I started seeing valid points.
- Hey, a major goal of mine is to see the world. I could do this work from anywhere I have internet!
- I do enjoy working on the computer and I do have skills with a computer. I could see myself learning this.
- It does make good money. This job would easily support my love for animals (both horse and canine). I could even work a few years, save enough money, then just drop out and start my own business! (I've always wanted to run a business with animals, but not until I get a bit older.)
- Since the animal world is a hard field to get into, this would give me a fall back job.
Okay, I'm game for it now! What do I have to do?
I did my freshmen year in home-school, but I decided to go back to public high-school my sophomore year. I missed my friends. Half-way through my sophomore year, I decided I wanted to give this computer gig a shot. So, after my first semester of public high-school, I went back to home-school. It wasn't going to be for long though, because I was going to take the C.H.S.P.E. (equivalent to a GED, however in California you can't take a GED till your 18). Get out of high-school, go to the east coast, and get my career on!!! :thumbsup: Woo!!! Easy, right? Well yes, up to a point.
I took my C.H.S.P.E. and passed with flying colors. I was planning on passing this, going to the east coast, then taking my GED there to stay outta high-school. Our friend would teach me the tricks of his trade, I would work in his company, eventually get a degree in college, life would be grand, ect...
Well, to be honest, I'm not sure what happened. Once I passed the C.H.S.P.E. --it all fell apart. My dad suddenly didn't seem so supportive anymore and the whole thing came crashing down around me. I don't know if he realized that I was really doing this and could be gone soon or what. I'm not blaming it on him, because I could have stepped-up and got some answers. Figured things out, fixed the plan -but I didn't. Like I said, the plan almost literally vanished over-night. We didn't talk about it, it was awkward whenever we talked about my future (it still is actually), our friend was confused. I mean, I didn't have the plane ticket over there or anything, but I was working on it.
I don't know, after this, I fell into this depressed, confused sort of state. I mean, life carried on of course. Yet, it is always weighing on me. It still is actually, hence why I posted this thread. It's a constant nagging in the back of my mind. I decided to just finish out HS and get my diploma, which looks better than a CHSPE or GED because why not? I didn't have anything else going for me.
I feel like I let this event sap all my energy. My motivation to get started early in a career; to have a head start, hit the ground running. It also saddens me because I've let this consume the last few years of my life. I've had no idea what I want to do. (Except some ideas with horses, see notes below) If I had recovered faster or handled it differently, life could have been quite different.
~*~*~*~*~*Horse Side Note*~*~*~*~*~
Besides computers, only a couple different career options have entered my head. Working with horses or working with dogs.
I have mainly looked into working with horses. Because of past experiences, I could see myself working on a dude ranch. (I have quite a bit of experience guiding public trail rides and of the outdoors period.) I love guiding trail rides and giving people the outdoor adventure experience. When looking into this career more, I found that this job pays very little money and just how seasonal it was. Which, I know is the case with most animal careers (little money). However, you spend a summer working and living on this ranch. At the end of the season, you need to go. You have no home, no job, and $5000-$8000 to live the rest of the 6 or more months to live off of. For me, this is a little more unstable than I'd like. (I can see myself working a summer or two at a ranch sometime, but I can't make a career that would satisfy me out of it).
Next Idea: Horse trainer. I've had horses steadily since I was 8 years old, and have been taking lessons since 5-6 years old. I know and absolutely LOVE HORSES. I could start a business, boarding and training. This satisfies what I'm looking for in a career. Only one problem, after this summer, I have found I'm not sure I enjoy breaking horses to ride. Even after the BEST EXPERIENCE possible with training horses. (Broke my filly Sasha this summer under a real professional friend's guidance. She never once tried to get me off her back. It was such a positive experience!) Yet I still get a little nervy for a bit when getting on her back because she is so green, and that is even after she has treated me so kindly. I'm lucky she loves me, cause a lot of green horses would have felt my nerves and probably be like
I will say, I do love working with them on the ground, especially foals!!! De-sensitizing, building trust, halter breaking, lunging, tricks ect... :thumbsup: I am totally comfortable with horses on the ground and on their backs. Just when I'm sure they're not going to try and get one over on me. (Had a bad overall experience with an unpredictable previous horse, and I think this is why I get nervous now).
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
You know, if I really wanted, I could still pursue this option. He told me himself, when you are 18 we'll talk. Yet, it is not the opportunity that I feel it once was. My friend has now built a booming business. His life is now extremely busy, and if I tried to wiggle my way in there now -I would feel as if I were being quite the burden to him
I didn't fight for that life though, and this thread is about letting go of the past and embracing the future...
I want to think of it now as: "Hey, maybe fate intercepted a bad call. If I really wanted that life, I would have fought harder for it."
So here it is, I want to start a new chapter in life. Chapter 1 "The NEW Beginning".