10-26-2011, 12:47 PM
Join Date: Oct 2011
Location: Pasadena, CA
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I have the puppy Blues :(
Hi Guys, I'm new to this forum. I just joined today. I got to work and started looking online for any info on the "puppy blues". This morning i started crying. It hasn't been my first cry fest. I've been so depressed and stressed and anxious since my husband and I got our puppy (samoyed) on October 15th. We got him at 8 weeks old from a reputable breeder who has been wonderful answering my emails and helping me out as much as possible. But I really don't want to tell her how awful I've been feeling. A little background on my situation: I lost my best friend Foxy (chow mix) in December of last year to cancer. She was almost 11. I miss her terribly, but I'm thankful she's not suffering anymore. Recently, I talked to my husband and we decided it would be a good time to get a dog. I've always been a dog lover and i grew up with dogs all my life but was never the primary caregiver until I got Foxy. But I didn't get Foxy when she was a small puppy. I got her when she was over a year old. Anywho, I did a lot of research and the a Sammie would be a good fit. I was so excited doing all the planning and I couldn't wait to get him. After the first few nights he was with us I started feeling overwhelmed. My husband and I are sleep deprived and although my husband is awesome and we share the responsibility equally, I'm scared he might resent me because ultimately it was my idea to get the puppy. I honestly wasn't prepared for all that it entails to have a puppy. We've been doing the best we can. We're crate training him and we take him out multiple times a night to potty. During the day either my mom comes and babysits or my husband takes the puppy to work which can only last for a short period of time because it's unrealistic that he'll be able to take him to work all the time. He's had a few accidents in the house and in his crate but we've been trying really hard to get him potty trained so that he can have more freedom.
Today I left him in his xpen in the kitchen. I left the house at 7am, after i had played with him and taken him out to potty. My husband is suppose to go home and check in on him and feed him at 11:00am. I'm wondering if leaving him in his xpen was the wrong thing to do and I'm praying it won't regress all the hard work we've been doing with his potty training.
Bottom line is I don't have kids, but I'm feeling like I have postpartum depression with this new pup and I don't know how to shake it. I feel like a failure all the time and i've lost my appetite and have a gnawing feeling in the pit of my stomach most of the day. He's so cute and I want to relax and be able to enjoy him but I just can't shake it. I'm hoping some of you might have some advice or share if you've ever been through this. I feel lost and giving him up is just not an option. Even though I've thought about it, I just couldn't do it. Thanks for letting me vent.