10-08-2019, 09:29 PM
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When Alva was put to sleep I stared at her and thought 'are you really dead, you look like you' re just under anesthetics, you should wake up'. But of course she didn't.
Do not blame yourself. Putting the dog under those drugs is always a risk and you cannot see sensitivity on your bare eyes. I knew a dog who died on the table during surgery. She was young but not that old.
The loss of a dog feels awful at first. I had a planned trip right after Alva's death and although I thought about not going, I decided to go and that probably helped. I got a little distance to it so that not all the thoughts and grief and memories rolled over me at once. I send a virtual hug. The grief just is something that has to be weathered through and one day, with a bit of longing, you remember your good friend and family member, and that is a happy memory. I watched a video of Alva doing obedience and cried. Was she really that good, did she really have that good attitude doing that?