alfi

I cannot really write much about it right now. My mind is going crazy full of thoughts and feelings.

It was 2 days ago Sunday early morning about 5:00, Ebony came into my room silently and jumped on my bed putting her paws and head on my chest. I let her stay and hug her as we slept together. A few minutes later I heard the other dogs whinning continuesly for over 5 minutes so I had to get up to see what's wrong...I would get up anyway as it was time for me to wake up.
I went to the dogs room but everything was ok there so I returned to my bed where I realized that Ebony was not breathing any more. I couldn't believe she was dead. She just had overcome her wound! I couldn't believe it! I was there all alone crying didn't know what to do...and I had to take the sheep out to eat and walk the dogs.

Ebony had never barked, she was only howling every night like a wolf. She was wild couldn't bare a collar or a leash. She was strong and free spirited. She was black with a white mark in her chest. She was quite tall for a Belgian Sheepdog and also stronger. Her teeth were not like dog's teeth. She was like a wolf, acting like a wolf, howling like a wolf. She was 14 years old and could still run all day...and I mean all day! Her eyes were black but at night green. It was the only thing you could see of her in the night. She was our protector and a mentor for the other dogs. She had save my father once when a husky attacked him. I was there to see it. She jumped over the Husky as she was running and grabed his neck from behind putting him down without killing him. She was full of confidence and strength even at her last minutes. I wish I could see through her eyes once more! You could see her whole character just looking in her eyes! That was her mark!

I have an image stucked in my head when we first built the farm there and let her free in the wilds...she run up the hill and stunt there looking at me and I knew she was happy! It was like I set free a wild animal back in her natural environment. I have this picture of her stucked in my mind. I remember she run back to me and jumped on me putting me down and then laying down to rub her belly. I played with her all day out in the fields and then walked in the small forest near us. OMG I miss her so much!!

Suddenly the phone rang. It was a guy from the "wolf park" as I like to say it. He told me that the injured wolf had died. The wolf and Ebony died together almost same time. They know that I leave home at 6 in the morning and so they called to inform me ... you see I had to sent them the money for the "adoption" one of these days and they had to call me. What a coincidence...!

I know I am boring and I am sorry for this but please bare with me cause I need to write some things about her to free my heart a little.

RedyreRotties

So very sorry to hear of your loss. Deepest sympathy and warm hugs.

Mikey

Oh Alfi-how sad. I am so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful tribute to Ebony you wrote. I feel as though I knew her. She sounds like she was an amazing dog and a wonderful friend. And it sounds like you loved her and made her very happy-a friend couldn't ask for more.

This poem always comforts me when I grieve for my lost four legged friends.


Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

alfi

Oh thank you all!

I really like the poem Mikey

I feel I learned so many things from her! To be free, to be myself, to be confident, to chase my dreams, to live my life every minute.

She lived with us 14 years...I don't know what her exact age was when we got her. When I was young I thought she was a wolf. I remember me saying "Dad she is not a dog...she can't bark! She is a wolf and she will eat us!" ... I guess she found "her wolf" finally!
I think I can still hear her howling every night. Maybe she will wait for me to play again.

I remember she was strong even as a puppy ... one day in a DP a huge German Shepherd came to sniff her and she run playing and the GSD tried to bite her cause he found it annoying and she run under his feet and bite his left back leg...and the GSD run away to his owner who complaint to us about that...I couldn't hold my laugh. It was hilarious to see a small dog to provoke a huge GSD! She was like "come on big boy I have you!" ... like scrabby in the Scooby Doo show...lol!

Criosphynx

Iam so sorry Alfi...14 is a nice long life tho. Iam sure she had a happy life with you

TashaHope

Aw, I'm soo sorry alfi. I love what you wrote about her though, it was very nice. You were lucky to have her and she was lucky to have you!

fawkese1

oh alfi... i'm so sorry for your loss... ebony sounds like a wonderful dog who lived a good long doggy life.... you are in my thoughts...

alfi

Thank you all!!

I know I am gonna say she was a "special" dog for all my dogs one day ... but she was more than special for me.

Again thank you! I hope she lived a good life. I sooo sad cause I only have one pic of her and a small video in a tape but I cannot find anything right now.

Shastar

I am sorry to read about your friend.

I know you dont know me but I am sending *hugs your way anyway.

alfi

Thank you!! All hugs are very welcome!! I am reading your posts Shastar so I'll get to know you